Today I went to a meeting with my brother and he is going to be applying for a new job soon. Somewhere in the meeting I had a coming to Jesus moment and remembered that Im supposed to be on this planet longer. I also talked to a career counselor at school about the direction of my education, jobs, and graduation and for the first time in many weeks I felt hopeful.
I am going through so much stuff right now between finals, apt hunting, car problems, depression, my husbands attitude problem and money worries I forgot what hope was. I went up in my dosage of antidepressants last night and Im sure its all in my head (pun intended) but I do feel a little better today. Or perhaps I just got some good rest and had a good day?
Who knows? Only God/Goddess knows if such a thing exists? A few days ago I wanted to hang myself in the closet and today it feels like a less important thing to do. Perhaps I still have work to do, even if Im never appreciated for my contributions.
-SVJ
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