Seriously having a tough time. I think my antidepressants aren't working and crap keeps piling up in my life. My 2nd therapist the other day said to me (as if I didn't already know) that: crap is still crap even if you are on an antidepressant. I felt like saying, "No shit sherlock" but I didn't want to get 'tresspassed" at the clinic and she gives me my medication. Never piss of a judge, a wife, your bartender or doctor, I always say.
I tried reaching out to two of my best friends today because I really needed to go to the doctor to be evaluated. Im really starting to wonder what this whole living thing is about because I don't see any use to it any more. I don't make a difference, I can never seem to get things right and Im not getting any happiness from life anymore.
Why keep going?
SVJ
Sorry you're feeling so dark and bad inside. You keep going to be with your loved ones. Alex, your pets, mom, gunkles, friends, and to serve god. Talk to your Dr about this. Your medication may not be right for starts. All of the bad stuff adds up and can make life seem hopeless and overwhelming. I know! But it won't always be that way.
ReplyDeleteThank you Sarah, and for taking the time to read my blog. If I had a car still we could hang out more. I hope motherhood is going well for you. xoxo SVJ
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome. It's okay, I understand completely. I have never driven at all so the other side of town might as well be another state sometimes. Motherhood is hard, but awesome. And tiring lol When he gets bigger I will be starting to venture out in the world more. My anxiety can be really rough at times, but I want to go out on my good days because he deserves it :)
ReplyDeleteMaybe when I get a car in the fall we can hang out more again :)
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