What does it mean to struggle your whole life to try to stay vibrant, happy and satisfied. Why do some have an easier time with accepting life as it comes at them or that depression/anxiety never touches them. They seem to whisk through life without a care in the world or untouched by the dirty truths about life.
I've been struggling with depression, and anxiety my whole life. It seems that I can never keep my head a float for too long. I think what builds into this is that I surround myself with people that do not appreciate my value. I am consistently taken advantage of and my work is rarely acknowledged.
For instance I've been volunteering for non profit organizations for almost 20 years and I have no where near the same status and admiration as people who have been volunteering less. Should I give up? Should I try to move onto other organizations who appreciate my value?
I know this blog is frequently dark and gloomy but its one of my rare outlets to be honest about life. Sometimes it may seem like Im being trivial, or pessimistic but others Im actually being inquisitive about why life suck and we all pretend it doesn't. Why do you think we all pretend life is glamorous, fun and easy? Would we all throw each other under a bus if we said the truth aloud?
Pondering thoughts,
SVJ
I think it takes a lot of courage to put it out there when life is sucking. I think it sucks for a lot more people than it appears to. Some keep it to themselves. Some just complain (which is *not* what I see you doing with your blog) and want it to stop. Some strive to understand it and figure out a way to get through it. I see you as the latter.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your feed back Rachel. I appreciate the time you took to read my blog, comment and leave feedback. Most of the time I just purge whatever is in my head and leave it. For the most part, I keep all my positive and perky posts for Twitter/FB. Here I try to have to courage to be honest about EVERYTHING. Again, thank you for your comment, you're the first and only so far- SVJ
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